Responses 25 to 28! Chang
1. Yes, Mark’s thoughts are justifiable with what he has experienced and witnessed at his age. The suffering, pain, loss, struggles, and more that he has gone through are ridiculously far more than what a high percentage of people have even touched upon. I can not imagine what it must be like to be in his shoes, to have his lifestyle, or to even experience some of it. Although suicide is not the answer when your struggles become unbearable or when you just can’t handle it anymore, he sees it as a solution and a way to put an end to the dark life he has lived so far. Because he is so young he doesn’t understand that it would affect others… especially his mom who has very high hopes for his future. I think that because of his age and the extreme amount of agony he’s been through it’s understandable he would want to.
You can argue that it isn’t because he possesses a high level of maturity at his age being treated like an adult. He also has responsibilities of one too, being expected to help out the family and take care of his younger siblings. His life isn’t like a normal kid with playdates on Saturdays, and a guidance counselor to go to when others bully him. He doesn’t really know what it’s like to have a birthday party, to have a best friend, or sleep in a comfy bed with a stable roof over his head. Mark doesn’t have that certainty kids need that everything will be okay when he’s experienced so many moments that make his feel like it never will be. Cut him so slack, and try to put yourself in his shoes…even though the soles are worn.
2. Page 168: “While standing there, lost in a world of confusion and fear, my mother unexpectedly joined me. I tried hiding the knife behind my back, but she had already seen it. She remained still alongside me, alternately looking at me, then at the knife. Overwhelmed with guilt, I dropped my eyes. A few moments passed in tense silence. Still she didn’t say anything, seemingly waiting for me to say something, to explain the reason for the knife, and why I was trembling. After a long while, I said, in a soft, trembling voice, ‘Mama, what would happen if I were to die? Would anybody miss me? Would anybody care? Will it matter to anyone?’” Chapter 28 in general was my favorite chapter out of all of them for me so far and tearjerking. I chose this passage out of Chapter 28 because I thought it was really strong. I like how the mom didn’t freak out too or panic like I would. It also shows how Mark is unaware that it would affect others, and thinks that his death wouldn’t make a difference. It shows how he’s peaked in terms of anxiety and really shows the relationship between him and his mom.
3. A-If you were going through similar things as Mark, would you consider suicide? What would you do if you were his age, and had gone through so much? Would you bear with it and stay strong, or try to find a solution?
B-If you had witnessed the murder, what do you think you would have done?